Life

As some may have noticed I changed the title of my blog. The reason for this is I don't think it accurately described the content that I have been putting on here. I believe that I am not really angry, but more frustrated at so many things in this thing we call life. So I am going  to try to write about thing from my past,present,and future. Try to be more positive about the things that I write in my blog. For instance I seen on the tv for something that perked my interest. The website called iamsecond.com , I encourage everyone with or with out faith  to check this out. This is a great testament to Jesus Christ, with many testimonials on so may levels. Now I know that some of my friends and family believe and some don't. And this is fine most know where I stand. Just in case you don't know I am saved so is my daughter. There was  information on the website that has really made sense to me. I know that I should do better in my life to be a better person on many different levels. And I consider myself a work in progress still. I truly found faith during my divorce, it was hard . I had a few choices on how to live my life I could bow out be a part time dad. Being involved when I decided to or had time. But I always knew in my life that I was destine to be or do something great. And then it hit me , I was to be a father to the best of my ability. If you know me I work really hard at this honor as I would put it . See I believe it is a privilege  to be a parent , and I have been blessed to have the most amazing daughter in the universe. She continues to impress and amaze me everyday. I have no doubt that she herself will grow up to great things, what ever they may be. I know a few new parents , and I always get asked advice on how to do things. I kind of stay away from giving them advice,but more tell them what worked for me . every child has a unique personality and not everything works for everyone. Man being a Parent  is a hard job. probably the most stressful . Not for the fact of what the kids do , but more the worrying if you are making the right choices to guiding  them to be the best that they can be. I am very fortunate to being told that I am doing a great job raising my daughter on my own . This is also stressful because now I have to strive to maintain or improve on what I am doing. I am no saint ,by no means I have done my wrong.I learned some great things from the way my parents raised me. They weren't perfect , But dam they tried hard and I know that . I thank them for that . I was allowed to fall on my face more than once even though they knew that I would fail , This is the way you have to learn about life sometimes . I can Honestly say this has made me a strong person. Very few people get to see me at my low times, Very few people will get to. FALL DOWN 8 TIMES GET UP 9. I have taught my daughter 2 moto's  for life 1. "ALWAYS BE PREPARED" and 2 "KEEP MOVING FORWARD" . Sometime we just have to trust that God has a plan for us all. Worrying about stuff you cant control is a waste of time . And time is one thing you can never get back.  I going to leave on that note .. Hug and love your loved ones often it free


Love , Peace , And  Chicken Grease
Til next week Same bat time Same bat channel LOL

The Healthy Way

Well this one is on changing . Changing the way we live,not just for ourselves but our children also. As some of you know I have Meniere's Disease and Dr.'s don't know what causes it or how to cure it.  On top of that I have Diabetes and sleep apnea , and it really sucks. especially the diabetes. I am a big guy... ok I'm fat but hey thing is I have trouble doing exercise do to vertigo.  I did't have diabetes until after my kidneys failed. Everyone has heard of Diabetes, but it is hard for anyone to grasp the full extent of this disease until you have to live with it. This is something that I dont recommend to any one at all. I have adapted my way of living dramatically, and not by choice. This is not a diet ,but more of a life style change. And as a guy who loves candy,cake,and burgers, this is a killer. Diet cokes and sodas aren't really good for you. Label  reading is a must, and let me tell you the food world isn't diabetic friendly. Right now there are more things coming out for gluten free diets  than diabetic diets. On top of all that all this healthy eating is not cheap at all.  Rifght now  is where I start to preach. I think that if you haven't we all need to make a change , not just for ourselves but for our children. Think about it , what are you teaching your children when all you do is eat out. This is what got us in trouble in the first place. Yes it is convenient , and I understand that time is an issue also. In the long run the effort will pay off. Maybe half of all the problems we are facing medically today are do to what we put into our bodies. I use to think that I was indestructible, I was wrong. Believe me when I say you do not want to go through this, and you sure dont want you children to go through it either. So the biggest question now is how do we change. This is the tough and easy part. What do I mean by this , its easy because all it takes is education and tough because you need the Right education. There is soooooo much information out there that you can go crazy. Even if you see a registered Dietitian, which I have twice now . They have different views on some stuff. Diets dont work I know from experience  It take a life style change , and it better to do it willingly than be forced to. Our kids learn from example, if we dont show them they will look else where to learn. I write this because I care and I know how hard it is going through 4 shots a day and 6 different medicines. This is not something I want my daughter to have to go through when she gets older. Now I am not telling you to change, but maybe you will think about how you are eating and take steps to make it better. Or you may keep on keeping on and never have a problem, and that is great. But what about your children , their future could be alot different if we don't show them the way And by the way I am learning new stuff everyday and I dont have all the answers, but I am trying... Thats enough for today

stay strong and smile every day

Parenting 101

Well it looks like I have the privilege of having a child coming into the teen years, with all  attitude and sassy-ness that goes with it. Kinda makes me glad that I have no hair, this way I don't have to pull it out. I know that all parents feel my pain in one way or another. So the ultimate question is how do you deal with all of this changing in these poor kids life? I say this because I sat and tried to think about how it was when I was that age. At the time I had a choice at certain times and others I didn't mean to say things or act with attitude , it just happened. We can all agree that the transition from a child to an adult is not the easiest thing to handle in the world. especially when its happening and you have no idea why you feel the way you do. Even as adults we have times when the chemicals in our brains from stress or other circumstances make us do or say things that we normally wouldn't. So I am doing my hardest to Understand that this is a massive change and be as patient  as possible. This doesn't mean that I am allowing the attitude, more it means I am trying to explain why this is happening and how to help cope. I do crack the whip and put my beautiful can do no wrong red head back in her place as needed. I cant ever tell anyone how to raise their children, but if you ask my advice I will tell you how I handle that situation and you have the choice on how to move from there. Being a parent is way more of a job than people realize. And the way you work at that is how it will either make it easy or hard. As being a single parent myself I see challenges everyday. On top of that I have a girl which made me learn stuff that I would never have done in a million years. I am never ashamed to admit that I can braid hair , paint nails ,and yes listen about boys from my daughter. Do I like all of the things I have to do. NO not all of them,but in time when my daughter looks back on her life I hope these type of thing stick with her and make a difference. My advice to all parents out there is #1 there is no set way to raise your child. Do what you believe is right and good for them, not everything work for everybody. So when someone tells you that you are doing it wrong. Say "ok" and do what you feel is the right thing to do.#2  remember how you was at that age, chances are you was just as bad if not worse. #3 Time time time , nothing happens overnight.  plus the more time you give to your kids the less trouble they can get into. Thats all I have on this , some may agree some may not. But like all advice you can take it or leave it , that is your choice. I Encourage everyone to do stuff with you children now , for one day you may not have the ability to do it anymore. I know this first hand and believe me it sucks. Until next time stay strong and smile everyday.



peace ,love, and  Chicken grease

Time and other stuff

Time is the most valuable thing in everyone's lives, because you always loose it and can never get it back. So do we make the most of what we have? I try but due to things beyond my control it makes it very difficult. I should call more of my family more often , like my Aunts and Uncles or at least chat with them on Facebook. But in our society people are so busy its hard to get 5 mins of someones time anymore. Plus the fact that if you get me going I can talk for ever.. that's what happens when your couped up in a house all the time.. But lets face it one of the things I like to do is talk ....sorry I was born with diarrhea of the mouth and I tend to debate people on things. This isn't done intentionally all the time , but the way my brain works is I seek information . I tend to ask questions to clarify and end up offending or making people mad. There are a very few people who can stand or know how to handle me when this begins.. I really don't go out with the intention to upsetting or offending  anyone.  Your belief  is yours, same as your opinion regardless if I agree or not. That and the fact that my brain runs faster than my mouth it is sometimes hard for people to understand what I am trying say. So if I offend you , I am sorry this is not my intention. I have been trying to learn to keep my mouth shut to allow other people to convey their points but my brain kicks in to overdrive when they cross a topic that I want to chime in on. I am a thinker , I think a lot . Some times about crazy stuff , sometime about serious stuff. My parents raised me to be an individual , and at sometimes I take that to the extreme. Some things you may not know about me. 1. I do have a college degree its in computer science and networking. 2. I am a huge history buff, I love learning more details about parts of history that they didn't teach you in school. 3. I am at some times a weird nerd who likes to act like I am 25 trapped in a 40 year old body.  4. I dress the way I dress not to impress but because its comfortable, the only reason I dont wear my star wars pajama pants out in public is  because my daughter would beat me in my sleep. 5. I USE TO HAVE HAIR AND LOTS OF IT ALL RED , MY DAUGHTER STOLE IT FROM ME. This is just a few of the things that make me a genuine one of a kind. The reason that I do the things I do act the way I act is because when you have time you shouldn't waste it on worrying all the time or being mad or what ever else is keeping you from living. I LOVE WHO  I AM.  Take or leave it . 

Stay Strong 

And Smile Everyday

ZOMBIES ZOMBIES ZOMBIES

As many of you that talk to me I always say that I am preparing for the zombie apocalypse . Well to tell you the truth I am just preparing for any situation that come about. As we have seen in past years natural  disasters, or terrorist dangers have plagued us. These danger will always be just around the corner. Even the government F.E.M.A suggest that everyone have a "bug out bag" in case an emergency occurs. http://www.ready.gov/build-a-kit   This is the link. We should all be prepared ,no offense but you can not count on the government to always save  you.  This is why I have my prepping stuff around . I also believe that there could be some unforeseen event that could happen in the future. Always be prepared that is something that I try to instill into my daughter. Or you could use that old saying "better to have it and not need it , then to need it  and not have it" But using the Zombie Apocalypse is a way more fun to use as an excuse to prepare. So everyone should take the time to prepare for an emergency "Just In Case"

SO , PEACE, LOVE, AND CHICKEN GREASE

Until the next time
Stay strong, and Smile Everyday

2013 the year of ????

Well here we are almost 3 months into 2013 and I can honestly say it has already been one hell of a let down.  I know thing cant possibly stay this way for ever but who knows. In case you don't know me very well I am a survivor I will get past anything thrown at me.. and I usually do it alone.. I ask for very little help if any from anyone. I will have been out of work for almost 3 1/2 years  now .. I had the foresight to get long term disability insurance to cover my financial  responsibilities. I haven't used any state, federal , or local  assistance. funny thing is if you need it you cant get it. But  I guess I don't know how to work the system.  Plus I am too honest . But the funny thing is when someone goes to get health insurance after his CObra is  up .  It cost 2 times as much as the cobra and doesn't include vision,dental, or Prescription coverage. I tell you I am not a fan of this Obama care that is my personal opinion, But there needs to be some serious reform in our health care system.. You want me to eat super healthy make a Salad .99cents and a cheese burger 5.99 . Where does that make sense that we are suppose to eat healthy ,but they make it so expensive that you can't afford to do it . I am on a limited budget since they raised the rates on my Cobra and my house payment. It is rare that I complain but this is total bullshot. I ask for just alittle help to make it buy for just a few months until I can get my stuff all squared away . But so may idiots abused the system that there are no exceptions , go figure. This year is coming with some very tough decisions, ones that I am not thrilled with but must be done. What I am referring to is that my daughter and I are moving back to Indiana sometime by the end of the year. Reason: Personal Family stuff, that is about as much as I am gonna put on a public forum. We have lived in TN nearly 11 years and we have loved every minute of it .We have made many many many friends and family here. It will be hard to move so far away.  But hey I am giving some of my southern family  a reason to come to yankeeville  LOL . As many of you know I take great care and pride in raising my daughter to be the best she can be. I believe that I am fulfilling that to the best of my ability and no mater what my condition or disability  I will continue to make sure that my little genius excels at everything. So with all of my ranting and raving over with I would like to make sure that we get to spend some time  with everyone down here before we go. Again it will be toward the end of the year , but I want to make the most of it while we can . For those who are reading my blog for the first time I have meinieres disease which doesn't allow me to work . I am going to have surgery in the future to take care of my severe attacks, but I will  have to go through therapy and rehab for the rest of my life. And my dizzy Dr. say no to work. so yee haw... So ladies and gentleman  until next time  stay strong and smile at least once a day it helps trust me.

The UPs and DownS. the start of 2012

Well I know that  I should be writing on this a lot more often than I have been. But I guess sometimes even the best of us get caught up in the thinking game and loose our way. As for the Holidays my daughter and I had a great time up in IN. I do feel bad I didn't get to see the people that I wanted to. I feel bad about it but I was ill the last part of my vacation up there. I  am greatfull for the family and friends that I have. So now on to 2012 with a new set of challenges on top of the one that I already have. But hey whats new right we all have problems. Well the great thing about having a blog is I can complain about them. I was recently terminated from my job due to being out too long on medical leave. This isn't a surprise I was expecting this sooner or later. The doctor and I have discussed my situation earlier this month and he knows whats going on and he has decided to disable me. So in the mean time I have to go on COBRA, now if any one has had to pay this they know it is extremely expensive. And trying to get replacement insurance has been crazy difficult . Oh buy the way the law that says insurance company's cant deny you cause of pre-existing conditions .....well that doesn't go into effect until 2014, oh joy . so I am faced with the fact that I have either a waiting period or a stupid high rate . So it comes to some difficult choices. OH yeah the doctor wants me to have brain surgery to try to fix my vertigo... like how i slipped that in there lol.. Some of the difficult decisions that I may have to make is to move back to IN.  Now most of you know I would really rather not move back. So there is the skinny all good not bad.  Well I guess its all in how you look at it. OH how I need a smoke ...its a good thing that I am too lazy to go get a pack.. So i have resorted to Playing video Games.....Muwahahahhaa........ I love my daughter ,she is just one of the most awesome kids I know.. I am now entering the teenage hormone phase of life... It is a good thing that I am already crazy.. lol all you parents out there know what I mean...  MOM and DAD I sorry for giving you the grey hair, but did you really have to give me that curse. ( I hope your children are just like you when you have them) lol .. you got me  there lol... I shall leave you with this "THERE IS NOTHING IN LIFE THAT CAN'T BE SOLVE WITH THE SAME TOOLS TO WIN A VIDEO GAME. EITHER SHOOT IT ,BLOW IT UP, USE A LIGHT SABER, OR THE FORCE ON IT"    MAY THE FORCE  BE WITH YOU....(by the way I don't have a gun or explosives, but i do have a Light Saber lol)