Life and Acceptance

Well it has been another long gap since i have last posted on my blog. So here we go at the beginning of Oct. talked to the doctor and I was basically told that i might as well start the process for disability.. Now this really sux in so many ways. but one is the fact that he told me that I will never get rid of the vertigo we will only be able to manage it. But hay it could be worse. I have realized that my life as it is at the most challenging  and not bad . I have a hurdle that i have to over come nothing more. I also met a great older gentleman at my last Dr. visit that made me realize this with his story. Here it is and it  is kinda funny. I was going to the restroom after my last appointment and my buddy Bucket was waiting on me ( He was my ride) as I came out of the bathroom this older gentleman look at me and said I sure hope your not my wife cause you sure changed or something like that, Now all of those who know me or have known me for a while know that i am a target for being picked on. Well this gave Bucket a good laugh , I assumed that Bucket knew this guy just because of the way he cracked on me . But to my surprise a couple min in to our conversation he asked our names. So our  conversation continued with what was wrong with me . He began to tell us that he had bypass surgery and had a coughing  fit broke open the place that they went in on his chest. While getting this treated at the doctor he was asked if anything was hurting to which he told the doctor that he had a pretty bad pain in his side . After the checked it out the found out that he had stage 4 pancreatic cancer. Now at this point I was completely floored . But not at anytime during our conversation did his smile leave his face or did his upbeat attitude change. I assume that he was either cured or in treatment but I didn't feel comfortable asking. Now you are probably wondering why I told you this story. Well I have learned that many people are challenged with adversity.. And the true test of a person is not what happens to them but how they handle these times that come their way. A good saying that I saw once was " Adversity melts the weak and Forges the Strong".  I know that someone out there has it worse than i do, and if someone can go through what this gentleman did and come out with a great attitude why cant I.  So smile everyday but be thankful for whaT YOU  HAVE. iT cOULd BE wORse.