insane crazy or crazy insane??

 So as most of you know I just picked up and left a couple of weeks ago and came to Indiana. And  I haven't explained my reasoning as  to why I  did this, especially for the fact that i was advised by my doctors not to drive out of town. Well for those of you who haven't heard yet I going to have surgery on  my ear at the end of July.  After talking to 2 different doctors on this .. and being told once again that this is my last option again . sounding like a repeat of what they told me already and confirming what I already knew that nothing that they was doing was working... I lost it Thursday morning after a night of not much sleep. I said FUCK IT packed the dog up threw some clothes in a bag and took  off  hoping for the best... I also had my daughter calling me from Indiana begging me to come up.. Some people may not understand or even agree with this action that i took.. all I have to say is try locking your self in your house for just a month. I was stuck in that fucking house for over a year except for Dr. app. and going to the drug store and the grocery once every one or two weeks... I needed to get the hell outta dodge and figure out some stuff.  I went from 18 medicines a day to 6  oh yeah I also got diagnosed with Diabetes and have to check my blood sugar everyday ..watch what i eat and that good shit ...at times in everyone's life you need to take a step back and reevaluate what  is going on.. Plain and simple "I TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED" I feel like a fucking lab rat to some of these doctors who have 1/2 clue to whats going on.. SO I sAID FUCK IT  .. I would apologize for the colorful words but hey this is how I feel in the raw.. have a Happy 4th of July.

One Wild and Crazy Summer

Well the summer has started out just as I had intended .. slow hot and full of things breaking.... Oh well June 15is the day that will make or break me  I am going to have a procedure that they will inject steroids into my ear to try to kill the  nerve that causes the dizziness... I'm not to sure i have a lot of faith in this because I have had it done before and it didn't work. But I really don't have any other choice at this point. This is going to be my last ditch effort to get back to work... oh how i miss work........Well on another note Haylie  pulled through at crunch time to end the year will all B's and one A I am truly proud of her she does such a great job in all she does. She also got second place in art . I also want to give a shout out to my nephew who won all gold awards in academics for the fifth grade and is moving on to become a sixth grade genius .. I told him on the phone that he was a nerd..and his reply was and I quote " Oh that what they called you back in the day" Bravo Young Matthew you got me. On a more serious note he also has given his life to god and is going to be baptized in the near future..two of the most Important kids in my life continue to make me proud .. Now with that said they are also the ones who drive me nuts the fastest.. but that's OK I can deal with it with all the great achievements that they continue to accomplish. All I can say is world watch out for in the future you will all see the greatness that Haylie and Matthew have to offer. Don't believe me look at them now its already shining through.. Well enough bragging, Oh one more thing congrats to all the graduates this year... Enjoy the summer cause you will be joining the real world soon enough. I hope that everyone has a great and safe summer.

peace love and all that crap....

May the Force Be With You.


Bryon.