Patience and Acceptance

Patience and  Acceptance this is the topic for this post .. As most of you who know me I have hardly a good grasp on patience and the acceptance of help from people with me not being able to give back drives me ape shit bonkers. I know short drive right. well I have to thank all of those who have and are continuing to help while im going through this fun adventure.. Had my good friends Andy and Stephanie Eberly down this last weekend with there baby boy great times.. Both of them took it upon themselves to do something around the house.. To all of you who know me that drives me nuts..we decided to go eat Chinese the last night they was here. Not only did i get 3 fortunes in one cookie(don't know if that's bad or good), but here is the first one that i read.(look at the top of page ) So to all who help me and continue to thank you so much I appreciate it soooooo much thank you again ..I will pay you all back as soon as i get better.

Proof

Ok number 3 happened today. if puzzled refer back to the post of the Rule of Three. I tried to listen to everyone and stay positive. I even had a visit from a good buddy last night . Thanks Kevin it really great to see ya. Ok back to number three, I am probably 1 of only maybe a handful of people in this entire world that can catch a lawnmower on fire... not once but twice...it hadn't been used in at least a year and boom flames a flying ..woo hoo. but oh well I didnt want really try to mow the yard anyways.. By the way IT A PUSH MOWER  not a rider. well Party on Wayne ...Party on Garth....

The Rule Of Three

The Rule Of Three... some know it some don't. It is pretty simple  that bad things always happen in three's. Now some of you out there just look at this and say that's absurd ,just an old wives tale.. Well bullshit I believe in it and I seem to be living it .. My resets and  starts new every week and this isn't just stuff to do with health its everything. But, oh well its funny.. I heard the saying the other day that you should laugh at 90% of the stuff going on in your life and  give a shit about 10% cause no matter what you not getting out of a live.  So if you talk to me in person and I start laughing about some of the not so good stuff going on in my life I guess it doesn't fall in that 10% in my opinion. For the most part I act the way I do for  my daughter .Cause to be honest no matter how I feel she shouldn't have to bear that burden. So I put on a happy face and try to make her day brighter no matter how I feel or what going on with me. So back to the rule of three, I have two down already and the week is just getting started. Well one my many doctors called me yesterday to inform me that I am now Pre-diabetic and the I have to watch what I eat.. OK here is the joke in that one lol  I am already following a 1500mg a day salt diet...For those who cant really grasp that concept look at everything you and drink in one day add the sodium up and that's your intake or another way is that one teaspoon of salt  is over 3000mg of sodium not tablespoon .. teaspoon.  I now have 3 months to loose weight and get this under control . Then today's GOOD News for the hereditary disease that i have and they was taking 500ml of blood a twice a week to get it under control well I guess my body isn't recovering like its suppose to so im at risk of becoming anemic so now they put me to once a week .... what does that mean well its going to take longer and there maybe another under lying problem causing this  WOO HOO  Just waiting for number 3 lol ... Life, thank God for video games and reality shows or how would we be able get through our boring lives lol

Here the Now and ANGRY PART 1

OK for most of the people who have been close to me you already know that I have been down for quite a while.( 1year May 9th)  For those of you who haven't been following or only give half a shit here is what's been happening. I was diagnosed with Meneire's disease or how ever you spell it. This has to do with the middle ear, it not only creates hearing loss, ringing in the ears but also hits you with bouts of Vertigo(dizziness). This I have had for several years I would usually get it in one of the summer months and it would last only 7 days and go away until the next year. well about 2 years ago it lasted for 3 weeks then this last year it didn't go away. I was at first having Vertigo spells everyday for about 4-5 months. Some so bad that i would end up spending and hour or so in the bathroom throwing up. I would get these walking, sitting,stand,lying down, and they would even wake me up out of a dead sleep. They would last anywhere from 15-30 minutes to 2-4 hours depending. I have seen many doctors and specialist and  tried about everything. They gave me allergy shots to geninmiasin infusion to kill the nerve inside my ear. They even put an equalization tube in my ear to help with the pressure. With all of these none has worked. I have since moved to Vanderbilt to 2 different specialist 1 a dizziness specialist and the other a neurologist (who is an Asshole by the way) for  migraines.  And some progress was being made i was down to 2 attacks a week still not good enough to go back to work but getting there. Then on Febuary 17th that all took a shit dive. While on a normal routine blood pressure medicine check up and question secession i was hooked up to an EKG that said i was having a mild Heart Attack. There goes the F'ing neighborhood after about 20 min of arguing with the doctor and several nurses I had the fun and exciting time of my very first ambulance ride WOOOHOOO. I spent half of that day in the Cardiac ER with what seemed like a 1000 wires needles and other shit hooked up to me. So finally after getting up to a room and getting to talk to a doctor I found out that my  kidneys had shut down completely and created a high level of potassium in my body it created fluid around my heart that mimicked a Heart Attack. So i got to spend the night in the Harton Hilton.. The fist time I had ever  spent the night in a hospital cause I had to( who gives a shit right). Well at this point before I continue this lovely story I would Like to personally thank each and every person who stepped up to help out with the one thing that was most important to me.. my daughter. This thank you also is extended to all those who offered. I can honestly say that the good Lord above has blessed me with some of the greatest friends in the world , I will for ever be indebted to you.. and pray that I can pay you all back someday for the things you have done for us. Now back to our show after spending one of the most sleepless nights i have ever had the doctor came around at the crack of noon to inform me that my kidney function was back up to 10%... after my usual reaction of saying "COOL" he left . The nurse that was taking my blood pressure and another half gallon of blood to be tested decide that I was not fully informed to how dire the situation was( I guess because I wasn't whining and crying) so she proceeded to inform me how if this wasn't caught in a timely manor I could have died and not knowing how long my kidneys were down that it could have been only a week and I would have been worm food. Well after texting,calling, and begging everyone i could think of for a cheese burger or a smoke . By the way thanks Lashane for throwing my under the bus on that one. I finally talked or complained enough for them to let me go home with kidney function at 30%.. What caused this you ask.. well they think that it was a combination of 2 of the meds i was on. So after that I went to my family doctor the next week  walked in and apologized for being an ass that day and thanking her for basically saving my life. At this point we had decided to do a series of blood test to check everything including keeping track of the progression of my kidney function. In this process it was detected that I had a testosterone imbalance and a vitamin D deficiency and high Iron..So with the detection of high iron  I was sent to a hematologist/oncologist to under go more testing. An with that they found that I have a gentic disorder called hereditary hemochromatosis.. what is that you ask, well in basic terms it means my body retains iron instead of getting rid of it. How do you fix that you ask well , I get to go in and have blood taken out like when you give to the Red Cross except bigger needle and bigger bottle. about 500ml twice a week until my count is below 50 . Last time they checked it was at 475 so much fun.. Then on or after the 24th of may they are going in to do a bone marrow test, but i'll get into that later. As for the Meneries disease .... after my stint with the kidneys  my vertigo has come back more often.  The dizziness doctor will not do anything further until my kidneys are back to normal. So it  is hurry up and wait. For the most part being optimistic is hard and from this point i'll believe it when i see it .. i can't really  count on my luck cause its been so shitty lately ... With everything going on I know that I really don't have it as bad as it could be. I still get up in the morning put both feet on the ground and keep moving forward. The good Lord will get me through this no matter if i come out smelling like a rose or like shit . But that is how things are going in a nutshell .

Here the Now and ANGRY Intro (READ ME FIRST)

Well hello to everyone and thanks for stopping by. I need to make a few disclaimers right off the bat so everyone understands where I am coming from.
#1. there will be content in this blog and post here after that will contain my own personal view on religion "I AM IN NOW WAY TRYING TO OFFEND YOU OR YOUR BELIEF OR RELIGION NOR AM I TRYING TO PUSH MINE ON YOU".  
#2. I will use some language that some may beliveve is unnessicary (in other words I am going to cuss.)discaliamer inside a disclaimer my mother and father didn't bring me up this way. Love you MOM & DAD.
#3. I encourage feed back from all who read this But please refrain from saying the following phrases "I'm Sorry" "Hang in There", "Don't worry it will all work out". I ask for and seek no pity or sympathy for the situation I am in, it is no ones fault what is going on with me I am a big boy and I can take it.
"4. If  I offend you I am sorry. get over it I am not writing this to get in to a pissing match with anyone. I am writing this to inform and also to help me vent in a way that no one has to here me yell.

#5. This is the most  important one. The grammar and spelling in this will not always adhere to academic standards so don't write or post that this was a double negative or i spelled this wrong cause I don't give a shit, if  you get the point who cares.. this isn't a school paper.