insane crazy or crazy insane??

 So as most of you know I just picked up and left a couple of weeks ago and came to Indiana. And  I haven't explained my reasoning as  to why I  did this, especially for the fact that i was advised by my doctors not to drive out of town. Well for those of you who haven't heard yet I going to have surgery on  my ear at the end of July.  After talking to 2 different doctors on this .. and being told once again that this is my last option again . sounding like a repeat of what they told me already and confirming what I already knew that nothing that they was doing was working... I lost it Thursday morning after a night of not much sleep. I said FUCK IT packed the dog up threw some clothes in a bag and took  off  hoping for the best... I also had my daughter calling me from Indiana begging me to come up.. Some people may not understand or even agree with this action that i took.. all I have to say is try locking your self in your house for just a month. I was stuck in that fucking house for over a year except for Dr. app. and going to the drug store and the grocery once every one or two weeks... I needed to get the hell outta dodge and figure out some stuff.  I went from 18 medicines a day to 6  oh yeah I also got diagnosed with Diabetes and have to check my blood sugar everyday ..watch what i eat and that good shit ...at times in everyone's life you need to take a step back and reevaluate what  is going on.. Plain and simple "I TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED" I feel like a fucking lab rat to some of these doctors who have 1/2 clue to whats going on.. SO I sAID FUCK IT  .. I would apologize for the colorful words but hey this is how I feel in the raw.. have a Happy 4th of July.

One Wild and Crazy Summer

Well the summer has started out just as I had intended .. slow hot and full of things breaking.... Oh well June 15is the day that will make or break me  I am going to have a procedure that they will inject steroids into my ear to try to kill the  nerve that causes the dizziness... I'm not to sure i have a lot of faith in this because I have had it done before and it didn't work. But I really don't have any other choice at this point. This is going to be my last ditch effort to get back to work... oh how i miss work........Well on another note Haylie  pulled through at crunch time to end the year will all B's and one A I am truly proud of her she does such a great job in all she does. She also got second place in art . I also want to give a shout out to my nephew who won all gold awards in academics for the fifth grade and is moving on to become a sixth grade genius .. I told him on the phone that he was a nerd..and his reply was and I quote " Oh that what they called you back in the day" Bravo Young Matthew you got me. On a more serious note he also has given his life to god and is going to be baptized in the near future..two of the most Important kids in my life continue to make me proud .. Now with that said they are also the ones who drive me nuts the fastest.. but that's OK I can deal with it with all the great achievements that they continue to accomplish. All I can say is world watch out for in the future you will all see the greatness that Haylie and Matthew have to offer. Don't believe me look at them now its already shining through.. Well enough bragging, Oh one more thing congrats to all the graduates this year... Enjoy the summer cause you will be joining the real world soon enough. I hope that everyone has a great and safe summer.

peace love and all that crap....

May the Force Be With You.


Bryon.

The Long Pause

Well a lot has happened  since the last time that I wrote in this blog.. We re winding down the year at school .. my daughter won a 2nd place ribbon on one of her art projects.. Seems like everything is breaking all at once around here, but what else is new. Well as of right now the stuff with my blood disease is under control and I will NOT BE having to get the bone Marrow testing now.. wooooooo hooooo. The summer is going to be a real weird one , I would love to get the pool up and running but I don't believe that is going to happen. Reports have already come in that this is going to be the worst allergy season yet even worse than last year. I think that i am going to believe that cause it is affecting my vertigo really bad. Oh well I go to have a steroid perfusion done on my ear on the 15th of June  it is supposed to kill the nerve in my ear that is causing the dizzy spells lets hope that it works this time .. I have had it done twice be for and it didn't work. If this doesn't work than it looks like I will be looking for a new profession.. I think I will re-open up my computer shop Full time .. I already do stuff on a part time basis now but really go full force with this see how it goes down here. If I was in Indiana I could make it work. I bet i can do it down here... I have a few projects that I am starting .. so i can DO SOMETHING.... Oh I was watching this new show extreme couponing ,where all these people go in a get stuff for free and It just so happens I was fixing a buddy of mines wife computer and she does that. Not to the extreme on TV but she saves a lot.. so I asked her to show me how and she sent me a couple of website to teach you. If  anyone is interested in this send me a message I will forward the links.. Note : this does take some work and effort in order to accomplish the remarkable results seen on TV  and you wont do it over night. But even saving a little now a days is a lot..I am working my way into it I'll let you know how it is going.. Well since the End of the world didn't come I guess I'm gonna have to do something even if it is wrong. LOL well tell next time I hope everyone has a blessed day.

What we take for Granted

First off just so you all know .. I realize that are far more people out there that have it way way worse than I do.
So as another year rolls around and my birthday just around the corner.. I had a few moments .. OK a lot of moments to sit back and reflect on the things I use to take for granted.. One thing is Family and Friends , I know that I always thought that I would never have to call on anyone for help. Yet when I did it showed me  who my true friends were. The people that cared for my daughter and myself... It amazes me the length that people will go to help you. I so much appreciate all the people in my life, You all have made things so much easier to handle. One of the other things that I took for granted which this is one of the biggest ones in my opinion  is God. I know that most of us only talk to him or pray when things start to hit the shit house.. So I hope that my faith has become stronger even though stuff doesn’t always go my way.. Most of you know that I have been down for a long time what most of you don’t know is what I have been doing in this time.. For the most part I get to stay at home and do nothing.. I either get to try to catch up on sleep or I cant do much at all ...I have some friends that do come to see me ever couple of weeks,but due to the vertigo I usually only get out enough to go to the DR,Grocery, and if im lucky I get to got to the Union Hall. Lately I have to get out about 3 times a week to get blood taken out. So if anyone knows what cabin fever is then i have had that at least 3 times  and i have surfed the entire internet, I've done background checks on every person I know (??????) and thought about taking over several small countries, Saved the world from aliens,terrorist , and just general bad guys... So in short I have been super bored and not really able to do stuff.. I'm trying to get out and do more but seems the more I do the worse it seems to come back and bite me in the ass ..  But Oh Well, you know what they say IF LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS MAKE A PNEUMATIC LEMON LAUNCHER FILL THEM FULL OF C-4 AND SHOOT THEM BACK.... LOL



So to everyone that is here for me  THANK YOU AGIAN..


Also I'm gonna start a BBQ Fund to get enough to invite everyone  i can over for BBQ and pool.. just to see if its possible that I can actually get tired of talking... so feel free to donate..as the old saying  goes there is no better nation than DONATION






Peace and Love and all that Good Shit
Bryon

Patience and Acceptance

Patience and  Acceptance this is the topic for this post .. As most of you who know me I have hardly a good grasp on patience and the acceptance of help from people with me not being able to give back drives me ape shit bonkers. I know short drive right. well I have to thank all of those who have and are continuing to help while im going through this fun adventure.. Had my good friends Andy and Stephanie Eberly down this last weekend with there baby boy great times.. Both of them took it upon themselves to do something around the house.. To all of you who know me that drives me nuts..we decided to go eat Chinese the last night they was here. Not only did i get 3 fortunes in one cookie(don't know if that's bad or good), but here is the first one that i read.(look at the top of page ) So to all who help me and continue to thank you so much I appreciate it soooooo much thank you again ..I will pay you all back as soon as i get better.

Proof

Ok number 3 happened today. if puzzled refer back to the post of the Rule of Three. I tried to listen to everyone and stay positive. I even had a visit from a good buddy last night . Thanks Kevin it really great to see ya. Ok back to number three, I am probably 1 of only maybe a handful of people in this entire world that can catch a lawnmower on fire... not once but twice...it hadn't been used in at least a year and boom flames a flying ..woo hoo. but oh well I didnt want really try to mow the yard anyways.. By the way IT A PUSH MOWER  not a rider. well Party on Wayne ...Party on Garth....

The Rule Of Three

The Rule Of Three... some know it some don't. It is pretty simple  that bad things always happen in three's. Now some of you out there just look at this and say that's absurd ,just an old wives tale.. Well bullshit I believe in it and I seem to be living it .. My resets and  starts new every week and this isn't just stuff to do with health its everything. But, oh well its funny.. I heard the saying the other day that you should laugh at 90% of the stuff going on in your life and  give a shit about 10% cause no matter what you not getting out of a live.  So if you talk to me in person and I start laughing about some of the not so good stuff going on in my life I guess it doesn't fall in that 10% in my opinion. For the most part I act the way I do for  my daughter .Cause to be honest no matter how I feel she shouldn't have to bear that burden. So I put on a happy face and try to make her day brighter no matter how I feel or what going on with me. So back to the rule of three, I have two down already and the week is just getting started. Well one my many doctors called me yesterday to inform me that I am now Pre-diabetic and the I have to watch what I eat.. OK here is the joke in that one lol  I am already following a 1500mg a day salt diet...For those who cant really grasp that concept look at everything you and drink in one day add the sodium up and that's your intake or another way is that one teaspoon of salt  is over 3000mg of sodium not tablespoon .. teaspoon.  I now have 3 months to loose weight and get this under control . Then today's GOOD News for the hereditary disease that i have and they was taking 500ml of blood a twice a week to get it under control well I guess my body isn't recovering like its suppose to so im at risk of becoming anemic so now they put me to once a week .... what does that mean well its going to take longer and there maybe another under lying problem causing this  WOO HOO  Just waiting for number 3 lol ... Life, thank God for video games and reality shows or how would we be able get through our boring lives lol